Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Happy Wednesday!
I have absolutely NOTHING to talk about today...imagine that...I mean I guess I could find some crazy random stuff to discuss or even share with yall some of the many random thoughts going through my head but why bore yall. haha! Well....Okay I guess Ill bore yall a bit.

First off, have you ever found yourself feeling bitter...or even struggled with forgiving someone even though you know its the right thing to do? GUILTY!! As much as I try to always forgive...I struggle with forgetting. Well if Im not forgetting then am I really forgiving? Gosh it gets complicated...why cant I just forgive AND forget...wouldnt that just be easy!! Jesus says we are to forgive EVERYONE....EVERYTIME...no matter the situation or the assault. I have been struggling lately with forgiving {not that they have asked for my forgivness..but I know I need to in my heart} one person who has hurt me by mostly actions and a few words. Monday night at bible study I was able to share these feelings and my guilt for allowing it to eat at me and consume me. I LOVE my small group girls...what awsome ladies I get to call friends....Im so thankful for them. I have been praying about my feelings and this entire situation....it is so amazing how God hears our cries and answers our prayers even when we may not realize it. After just mentioning how heavy my heart was and how I have allowed bitterness to consume me....I received an email from my small group leader. {she mentioned this email and I asked her to forward it to me} She sent me an article on Replacing Bitterness with Forgiveness!! This was just what I needed!!! Now dont get me wrong...I didnt feel better over night but my thoughts are making sense and I feel as though God is telling me EXACTLY what I need to hear at this moment! Poor Aaron, he has had to listen to me sob and try to make sense of my feelings when I now realize that Aaron cant fix this {he can encourage me and support me} however God has already told me what to do and what is right...what he expects me to do. Starting with Forgivness!!

"For if you forgive men for their transgressions, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men, then your Father will not forgive your transgressions." ~Matthew 6:14-15




6 comments:

Ashleigh said...

You hit the nail on the head with your post today! I too have been struggling with the same thing! I like to say that I am forgiving but I'm not so good at the forgetting, which makes me feel like I haven't really forgiven. It's a battle in my mind and on my heart that involves some family members of mine, which makes it especially hard for me. Thanks for reminding me how important forgiveness is. I'll be sure to say a prayer for you and this that you are dealing with.

Leigh said...

Thanks Ashleigh for stopping by and sharing....I too will pray for you! Isnt it crazy to know that we are never alone and that there ar plenty others with the same battles!! Thanks girl!!

Melissa said...

I am definitely struggling with this right now. It's easy to say you will forgive everyone no matter what because it's what the Bible says is right. But, when you've been hurt, it's so hard to do.

Jennie said...

WOW! I love this! Great post! I seem to struggle with the same issue sometimes. :)

sHp said...

Leigh, I'm in this SAME EXACT situation. I'm asking God to relieve me of the feelings I'm having. Recently, He called me to give up Facebook for Lent. I feel this is going to help me, especially in the area of ignoring the many catty women I happen to know. I really appreciate your post - sometimes I wonder if people are thinking what I am thinking - and indeed they are!

Have a great night!

Brittany said...

Forgiving is so much easier then forgetting. Sometimes you just wish you could get the entire situation out of your head. It would make things less complicated!